Haya’s Crappy Blog

i didn’t wake up for sahur. sam didn’t wake me up.

anyway, that’s not the main story here. haha.

sam went back to bukit beruntung today. ~(>_<)~

i tried to call him from 10.30am but he woke up at 12.30pm.

and he was supposed to meet his friend at kl sentral in the afternoon.

after picking him up, we went to din’s house to wake him up.

while waiting for din to get ready, we had our own photo session. hehe.

it’s usual for girls to be late because they’re girls.

but it is unusual for guys to be late. as in to get ready.

but i don’t know why most of my guy friends are slow…

so, since sam was already late, we sent him to kl sentral.

i forced him to go back in the afternoon so he will be able to reach there early to break fast.

he won’t be coming back next week because he has replacement classes.

but he’ll be back for hari raya and he’ll be celebrating it with me this year.

and, after returning to shah alam, i and din went to shah alam mall.

i bought some cds which i need to burn some songs in it.

din bought a plain black t-shirt from giordano and wore it.

he also bought a pair of slippers and wore it. crazy.

we then went down to survey the handphones.

he might want to get himself a new handphone. if he has the money.

me? maybe. what? sony ericsson k610i limited edition white color.

then i’d have a matching handphone with sam. hee…

we can even exchange handphones. it would be cool!

but… i’ll have to wait till i have the money. not now, though.

but i suppose i’ll be buying it in october. that’s just a few days away.

i need to get a new handphone. sadly, kind of desperately.

because, my current handphone is lousy. it pisses me off.

the phone line is like chipsmore. now you see it, now you don’t.

i need a new handphone. lalala…

the whole family went to bangi for break fast.

yes, we went to my dad’s boss’ house in bangi.

the house was quite big. big lawn. and had cctv in the house.

anyway, break fast was buffet style.

i didn’t eat much. just a few malay kuihs. that’s all.

i wasn’t feeling hungry. and i didn’t feel like eating.

i was full i don’t know why. so i just drank lots of water.

i prayed a a lot last night. woohoo… unbelievable…

i performed the maghrib, isyak and tarawih prayers.

i was so sleepy i almost slept while doing the sujud.

anyway, the best part was when we returned to shah alam.

we ate at mcdonald in section 9. again? yes, again.

i just went there the day before and i came again the next day.

the moment i entered, i noticed the staffs at the kitchen staring at me.

maybe because they recognized me as the customer who came the day before.

or maybe they thought i look weird wearing a baju kebaya. whatever.

but i was satisfied because i got to eat double cheeseburger.

that’s all to report for now. not such an interesting day, huh.

yesterday was one of the best days i’ve had in september.

sam came back to shah alam for the weekend.

i and din picked him up at the commuter station.

we had dinner at mcdonald in section 9, also with hanif.

after dinner, the guys went home to take a shower.

then we went to jusco to watch a movie.

we watched ‘i now pronounce you chuck and larry’.

the sad part was, i had to fetch my brother from his tuition class.

so i dropped sam and din while i went all the way to section 13.

by the time i reached jusco, it was already 10.30pm.

i was so sad i didn’t want to go into the cinema at first.

but i went in because it’d be dangerous to wait outside.

and, din scolded me when i said i didn’t want to watch the movie.

so there i was, in the cinema, not knowing the beginning of the story.

was surprised when i entered, because my seat was beside the aisle.

and beside me was din. he switched place with sam later. haha.

i was so sad that i missed half the movie and i cried watching a comedy.

i leaned on sam’s shoulder and cried. wet his sleeve with tears. haha.

but after a while, i felt better. crying makes a sad person feel better.

and also the fact that i had someone to lean on to and hold on to.

the movie was so funny. it has to be one of the best comedy of the year.

i’m bad at reviewing, so just go watch the movie yourself, okay? okay.

after the movies, we hung out at dawood and had a long, long chat.

we talked mostly about din. his life, his work, his problems. and secrets!!

i got to know some of his dirty secrets which he shared with sam. haha.

and of course, we talked about 7-eleven. the hottest topic of all.

we talked about our former colleagues, our friends, our managers.

we talked about our memories of working at 7-eleven.

good memories, bad memories, bitter memories, sweet memories, funny memories, etc.

we ended up hanging out till 3.30am. that was long. longer than usual.

anyway, it’s not so often the three of us get to hang out with each other.

then after sending the guys back home, i headed to mel’s house.

we planned to have sahur together. in the end, mel didn’t join.

she was too tired not getting enough sleep. pity her.

so i, lea, and mimie went down to baiduri corner for sahur.

suddenly, this uncle sat at our table and talked about islamic stuffs.

i was so sleepy i was obviously head-banging in front of him.

but he just won’t stop talking. he didn’t stop until it was already 7am.

so i guess that’s pretty much what happened yesterday. and today.

i’ll write more later. i’m going to bangi for break fast with my family.

i’m so hungry. i just hope the food is nice…

.am i sick or something?

because i’m extremely underweight.

but i’m not anorexic or bullimic.

seriously.

i have lost weight.

again.

and now, i’m just 42kg.

at my height, i’m suppose to weigh at least 54kg.

now, let’s do the math.

54kg - 42kg = 12kg

in order to have a normal and healthy weight, i have to gain 12kg.

wow!! that is so impossible.

that’s never going to happen.

besides, i don’t want to be that heavy.

but at this state…

i’ll need to do something to gain at least 3kg.

45kg is my ideal weight for now.

now if only i can find a way to gain 3kg…

i used to envy people.

i used to be jealous, sometimes.

but now, i feel grateful.

i’ve learnt to appreciate.

i try not to see what i don’t have.

instead, i feel glad with what i have.

i thank god that i have a family.

because it means that i’m not an orphan.

i thank god that i have friends.

because i know that there are people who love me and care for me.

i thank god that i have a loving boyfriend.

because it’s not easy to find true love.

i thank god that i have a home.

unlike some people who are homeless because they’re poor.

i thank god that i have the chance to further my studies.

because i won’t be one of those people who won’t have a bright future.

i thank god that i have a voice.

then i can communicate verbally and not use sign language.

i realize that i may have things which other people might not have.

i am special in my own way,　ｗhich makes me a unique person.

i thank god for everything that i have which i’m not able to list down because there is just too many to mention.

thank you for everything…

my eye sight is getting worse. i think.

can’t watch the tv from the dining table.

not clear even from the sofa.

i need to renew my glasses. damn.

hmmm… maybe some other time.

not right now. i’m just busy with my studies.

あなたがいなくてもあいつは幸せだよ。

それは当然のことだ。

あいつは私の側でずっと幸せだ。

それも当然のこと。

これからもずっと私達は幸せ者になる。

people never appreciate with what they have and often want things that they don’t have.

people like to blame others and never want to take the blame themselves.

people always regret with what they have done but never learn any lesson from it.

people always look back to the past and never want to face the reality and move on.

people…

Now that it’s all said and done,
I can’t believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should’ve started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I’d doubt you,
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I’m slowly getting closure.
I guess it’s really over.
I’m finally getting better.
And now I’m picking up the pieces.
I’m spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should’ve started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I’d doubt you,
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I’m slowly getting closure.
I guess it’s really over.
I’m finally getting better.
And now I’m picking up the pieces.
I’m spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should’ve started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I’d doubt you,
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should’ve started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I’d doubt you,
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I’m slowly getting closure.
I guess it’s really over.
I’m finally getting better.
And now I’m picking up the pieces.
I’m spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I’m putting my heart back together,
‘Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through,
I got over you.

how did everyone spend their sunday??? mine was fine.

tried to complete my literature review but stopped halfway. lazy.

besides, azrin told me that tomorrow’s class is cancelled.

azrin called me and asked me out to the bazaar. went with mel too.

he was craving for samosa, which he ate when he came to my house.

went to section 6 but there were none, so we went to section 17.

so many stalls with variety of choices, but all were about the same.

and yet, no samosa. so he just bought his food for break fast.

mel didn’t buy anything, so i dragged her to have dinner at my house.

so happens that my mom prepared something nice to eat for dinner.

so i guess it was mel’s lucky day to be brought home for dinner. haha.

after dinner, we had a long, long chat about everything.

of course, they’re girl’s stuff, so there’s a lot of gossiping. hehe.

mel will be celebrating hari raya with my family this year. again.

this will be her 2nd time celebrating hari raya in shah alam.

we’re planning on going for last minute hari raya shopping.

and also she’ll be following along to my dad’s family gathering.

and after hari raya, we’ll be studying together at night for the exam.

and not to forget a lot of gossiping before going to bed. haha.

can’t wait…