lies
i’m not a big fat liar.
because i’m not big.
and i’m not fat either.
but i’m a liar right now.
because i’m lying to myself.
i’m lying to myself by saying i’m okay.
i’m lying to myself by not crying.
i’m lying to myself by smiling.
i’m lying to myself by laughing.
i’m lying to myself by saying things.
i’m lying to myself about my feelings.
i’m lying to myself about my emotions.
the truth is, i’m not okay.
the truth is, i want to cry.
the truth is, i’m not smiling honestly.
the truth is, i may be faking out my laughter.
the truth is, i’m saying things when i’m in a denial.
the truth is, my feelings are all sort of sadness.
the truth is, i’m emotionally unstable.
