Haya’s Crappy Blog

as a celebration in conjunction of finishing all the exams… we had dinner at kfc.
except that the ‘we’ only consist of me, isz, and azrin only.
well, i told isz to invite the rest but he thought i was going to invite the others.
in the end, it was just me and isz. then isz called azrin to join us.
azrin asked me out to sunway pyramid tomorrow. hmmm…
i’ll have to consider because i’m still feeling quite tired fue to insufficent sleep.
and, i need to have a private chat with azrin. he’s going back tomorrow.
isz will be working at genting highland during our 7 weeks holiday.
i’m jobless during this semester break and i might be broke soon.
if i’m not working, i’d most probably end up being the official driver at home.
tomorrow, i have a date to the movies with din and hanif.
will have to contact those two guys to confirm our date tomorrow night.
exam period for 3 weeks was very tiring. i’m so glad that it’s finally over.

yes, dear world, i finally finished my exams. woohoo!!
yesterday was such a great day for me. totally productive.
that in the end of the day, i was so tired and exhausted.
had a discussion for professional development at the library with isz and anis.
it was a good thing isz asked me along because i couldn’t study at home.
we discussed all the topics, especially trying to understand on self-awareness.
i didn’t read much in advance, but after the discussion, i understood everything.
not only that, i managed to memorize all the points at the same time.
next semester, i should study with both of them all the time.
got back late in the evening, had a very late lunch, and watched tv for a while.
at night, i had to send aichan to his tuition class, then fetch my sister from bangsar.
she returned the kia whatever car she test drived, so she had no transport back.
so i picked her up and also met with some dude called uncle jamal from harian metro.
returned back to shah alam and stopped by shah alam mall to buy some things.
also set a date to the movies to watch 30 days of nights with din and hanif.
sent my sister home and then went back to fetch aichan from his tuition class.
decided to stay up since i didn’t study last night as i was on the road for 2 hours.
unfortunately, i was so exhausted i fell asleep early. not quite, actually.
did look through my notes a bit, but was kind of in a blur condition.
finally went to sleep after talking on the phone with sam for a while.
woken up by sam’s morning call. studied a bit. then went back to sleep.
coffee doesn’t work for me anymore. damn. even energy drinks are not good.
i ended up sleeping this morning and not studying at all. just a bit, though.
went to the faculty early to have a discussion with isz and anis, as usual.
today’s discussion was fun because there were also fizi, mira, and azrin.
exam was okay. half of the questions were similar to the past year questions.
i left the exam hall about an hour early. it was kind of cold. i wanted to go to the loo.
and now, i’m back. but, i left my book and notes at the faculty.
hope that isz reads my message and take my things back with him.
stupid exams made me very forgetful. this is the external locus of change. haha.
i’m free. the semester break has started. i’m so happy. lalala…

i will never forget those days…
i will never forget those times…
i will never forget those words…
i will never forget those actions…
i will never forget everything…

allow me to laugh at a certain someone…
hahaha… (goes  on and on and on…)
so dumb and stupid.
asshole.

happy deepavali!! supposedly for yesterday. haha.
wanted to update my blog last night but streamyx was dumb. yeah.
yesterday was a bit tiring for me, although i didn’t do nothing much.
woke up in the morning, shower, had breakfast, and lazed around.
had to help my mom in the kitchen too. some korean uncle came over for lunch.
in the afternoon, i went to eddren’s open house which i dragged sam along.
it was kind of akward talking to eddren again after not meeting for like 4 years.
left after eating and chatting with eddren. i think we were the first to leave.
went to shah alam mall to see din at work. i think i see him at work too often.
anyway, made a date with din for a drink later in the evening during his break time.
i actually wanted to have mcdonald’s strawberry sundae but was pure lazy.
and sam didn’t want to eat sundae with me. that’s like so disappointing.
but he bought me a cornetto strawberry ice-cream on our way back. hee…
unfortunately, it had peanuts on the top. i had to scoop them out. yuck!
later in the evening, i went to pak li kopitiam with sam and din.
they are so addicted to this drink called cham. i’ve no idea what’s in it.
sam and din are coffee lovers. they like to drink hot coffee. like old men.
anyway, going back, sent din to work, sent sam back home. i went somewhere.
i was not in the mood to go home and study or do whatever so i went to 7-eleven.
so happens that bush and man were working. so i had a chat with bush.
have been quite some time since the last time i saw her.
at almost 9pm, i decided that i want to go home so we went out for a talk.
after a while, paan came and so i chatted with paan. bush went back to work.
after chatting for a while, both of us head back home. shah alam is so boring.
we just can’t wait for all the students of uitm to go back to their home.
then, shah alam will be all ours. haha. more like a quiet dead town.
but that’s only during the semester breaks. and it’s much more peaceful and quiet.
wanted to go online at night but streamyx didn’t want to get connected.
had late night supper of nasi himpit and  beef rendang because i didn’t have dinner.
tried studying in the middle of the night but was too tired and sleepy.
i decided to just go to sleep so that i can wake up early today. yeah, right. as if.
sam called last night and only had a chat with him for a while. he was sleepy.
oh, which reminds me… he used my handphone to misscall his sister and mom.
in the end, his sister sms-ed me and his mom called me but neither called sam.
that was funny. i only talked to his mom for while, but she was very friendly. hee…
i guess that’s all to report on yesterday’s event. i need to study. but i don’t want to.
sam is going back to bukit beruntung today. hmmm…………

everytime i go to 7-eleven, it brings back all the memories. good and bad.
i miss the 7-eleven staffs whom i used to work with last time.
ida, roket, zura, adihan, din, aidi, bush, abang pillah, daf, azizul.
i started working at 7-eleven in september 2006. more than a year ago.
the first people i met were dalina, ida and daf. i worked with ida and daf.
ida was very friendly and talkative and kind and we soon became close.
i enjoyed working the most with ida. she’s my best friend at 7-eleven.
we used to work together every weekend on saturday and sunday mornings.
working with ida is fun because we would talk non-stop during our 8-hours shift.
there are so many things which we enjoyed doing together at work.
working with roket was also fine. we had a lot to talk about too.
i was close to ida and roket because we were the same age.
i never really worked with boss zura. she is usually in the backroom doing her work.
but i remember her coming to the store every sunday morning.
then ida and i would force her to buy us ice-creams. in fact, cornetto! haha.
adihan was my favorite guy colleague, i’ll have to say. i fell in love with him. haha.
at first, he was this annoying kid who would only speak in sabahan slang.
he would talk a lot. too much talking, actually. and a lot of asking questions.
his voice was annoying. his words were annoying. he was extremely annoying.
after a while, we became good friends. then close friends. and my boyfriend.
din was a very quiet and shy person who didn’t talk much especially to girls.
i was not close to him at first. he was quite anti-social when it comes to girls.
he was quite hardworking and he did most of the job when we worked together.
i think everyone did more work than i ever did whenever i work with anyone.
but now, din is my best friend. okay, so, he doesn’t accept girls as his best friend.
din is a close friend of mine who helps me a lot in so many things.
then there is aidi. we started work on the same day. that’s why we were close.
not to mention that we worked together a lot often when we just started work.
he was fun to work with because he was funny and helpful and kind and protective.
he also did most of the work while i just did nothing most of the time.
unfortunately, he developed a feeling for me which i didn’t know since when.
it was unacceptable because he was 2 or 3 years younger than me.
but hey, people say that age is not a barrier to love someone. but still…
he is too young to be with me. and i had a boyfriend. he knew it.
i liked adihan at that time. adihan liked me too. he knew about that too.
things were fine between us and we were close friends and all.
we always hung out together and stuff. but i guess he took advantage of me.
no, let me rephrase that. he took advantage of our close friendship.
early this semester, he thought i was ignoring him on purpose.
that’s when he called off our friendship. felt a bit guilty but kind of glad too.
my close friendship with him might have ruined my relationship with adihan.
i heard that it almost ruined his friendship with adihan too. that’s bad.
basically, he was still a kid and not mature enough to handle all these.
not to mention that he had a serious case with 7-eleven at that time.
i guess everything just bombed down on him at the same time.
bush was also one of my close friends when i was working there.
she gave me lots of advice and she was my listener when i had problems.
abang pillah is also one of the people that i was close to. he’s very kind to me.
he’s older so i can always rely on him and ask for advice and so on.
a very hardworking person too. gosh, it’s as if everyone is hardworking and i’m not.
daf is the most hardworking staff among all the 7-eleven staff of section 6.
when he starts his shift, he will sweep and mop the floor, then wipe the windows.
he used to be cold to me. he doesn’t really talk to people he’s not close with.
after a while, we became close and we started to hang out together often.
i don’t see him right now since i’ve been busy with class and him busy with work.
azizul was the new mt there when i was still working in june this year.
i found him amusing because he did his work without bothering about others.
he would hum to tunes and sing while doing his work and be in his own world.
he is also funny. and he is very hardworking. a good employee. haha.
everyone is so hardworking i’m starting to feel bad and look bad.
it’s not that i’m lazy. i still do my work. but everyone just wanted to do them.
and they would let me stay at the counter and attend to the customers.
in the end, it looks as if they’re more hardworking than me and i’m the lazy one.
there were so many things which happened while working at 7-eleven.
all the dramas, conflicts, comedies, love stories. haha.
my sweetest memory of working at 7-eleven is adihan. i miss him so much!!

sam is back. he came back this evening.
coming back just to get his blanket washed is lame.
and coming back just to watch soccer match is lame too.
i fetched him at the commuter station and we had dinner together.
we had dinner at kedai kopi, which was also lame.
because the food was lousy. i ordered nasi goreng cina and it was bad.
the fried rice was tasteless and dry and so not delicious.
maybe it was a new cook. or he was lazy to cook properly.
or maybe the cook had a grudge against us and cooked badly.
which is totally impossible. haha. no such thing will happen.
unless the cook happen to be my ex-boyfriend’s friends. haha.
still, that might not happen. because they are highly ambitious people.
they will want to work at fancy restaurants or good star rated hotels.
anyway… i have no idea what i’m trying to say here.
i’m done with this entry. next…

i have 2 open house to attend to tomorrow.
in the afternoon, i’ll be going to eddren’s open house.
will finally have the chance to meet him after like, 4 years?
he was one of my best buddies back in form 5.
the mrs see’s tuition class gang. haha.
then in the evening, i’ll be going to ejan’s open house.
i’m not friends with him, but azhani invited me to come along.
we’ll be going with muni too. all of us. wearing baju raya. huhu.
then, on friday night, there is paan’s open house.
i want to go to his open house, but i have exam the next day.
maybe i’ll just show up, have a chat a bit, then go home.
was planning to bring along din, but he’s working the evening shift.
i’ll have to think again whether i really want to go to paan’s open house…

my mom just mentioned about election.
she asked me to register so that i can vote.
gosh, i didn’t realize i’m already 21 until she mentioned about the elections.
maybe it’s because i’m still studying, so i don’t have the feel for those craps.
and the fact that my sister doesn’t vote too.
well, i think she haven’t been voting all these years.
and she mentioned something about not wanting to vote for anyone too.
i don’t think there’s anyone i want to vote for either.
but there’s one particular i wish i can vote for.
i wish to vote for koizumi junichirou to be japan’s prime minister again!
haha. that’s something impossible and unachievable.
but seriously, i think he makes a very good leader.
he’s sort of like malaysia’s tun mahathir.
and i’m sure everyone would agree with me that…
malaysia was way much better when tun mahathir was our prime minister.
for now, i don’t want to vote for any crappy election.
like, i need to concentrate on my studies for the finals. sheesh!

Hey, girl, you know you drive me crazy
one look puts the rhythm in my hand.
Still I’ll never understand why you hang around
I see what’s going down.

Cover up with makeup in the mirror
tell yourself, it’s never gonna happen again
You cry alone and then he swears he loves you.

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I’ll tell you my friend, one day this world’s going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever, you will surely drown
I see what’s going down.

I see the way you go and say you’re right again,
say you’re right again
Heed my lecture.

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I’ll tell you my friend, one day this world’s going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has…

One day she will tell you that she has had enough
It’s coming round again.
[x2]

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I’ll tell you my friend, one day this world’s going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has…

Face down in the dirt, she said,
"This doesn’t hurt", she said,
"I finally had enough."
[x2]